FANVID: in which obstinatrix branches out.

[obstinatrix]

I have been desperate for a Spock Prime fanvid to Johnny Cash's Hurt since the moment I heard it. I'm not really much of a vidder, but since nobody else seemed to be inclined to indulge me, I went ahead and made it myself. It was necessary. :)

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[lettered.livejournal.com]

I love this. It has . . . kind of owned my soul for the past couple days. I kept thinking about it at work and then I couldn't work because I was too sad. I'm serious here. K made fun of me.

I love this version of this song.
I've been wanting songs for a Spock mix for a long time.
I've thought before about how Spock Prime might view his beforeKirk!self as emotionally stunted. How he might even feel sorry for that self, for that person who has no peace, and no true friends. But in this there is such a true caring and love for that younger self--I mean, in the ways that Spock Prime is speaking to nuSpock, here.
This made me think new thoughts about Spock Prime, such as:
-I always *liked* to imagine he was at peace by the time Kirk died. That he would go on as Kirk would have wanted him to, and die feeling fulfilled. Not to say that he wouldn't be sad, or think the best part of his life is over. I think he'd feel both these things. But since he does come to a kind of peace by STVI I always hoped he'd be--okay, when Kirk died. But this kind of rips that comforting assumption away--it's not that he's going around wanting to kill himself from despair, every day. But I can see him not liking the person he is without Kirk there to be his other half, feeling that the work he would have done with Kirk, is now--doing it alone--futile and a failure.
-It never even occurred to me he'd blame himself for not saving Romulus, and thus blame himself also for the destruction of Vulcan. That would be so utterly illogical! But I could see it happening.
Last, him touching nuKirk's face on "old familiar sting" breaks me.
Also, "sweetest friend" is somehow so perfect. Sure I hope they had a lot of hot sweaty sex, more than brothers and more than lovers and what have you. But what they always were first and last was friends, and for Spock that was so life-affirming.

I'm really sad again so I'm going away. But I loved this and thank you for making it.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this comment. I haven't really vidded before, except for randomly stringing clips together, but I really needed to make this one. I wanted to show all the things you mention: the fact of Spock's continued existence the way it is shown in nuTrek really caught me. He is...alone. And that saddens me so much. And it just made me think about just how long he has been without all the people that he loved, who were all human, after all. And - yes. :(

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