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obstinatrix ([personal profile] obstinatrix) wrote2011-10-02 11:57 pm

[masterpost] Our Bodies, Possessed By Light (Dean/Castiel, NC-17)


Title: Our bodies, possessed by light
Pairing(s): Dean/Castiel
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~42,000
Summary: Purged of all his souls, Castiel is a changed being, stronger than an angel and too powerful for Jimmy's body to contain. Happily, there's an archangel's vessel on hand, and he could use fixing, too. Dean isn't too happy about the idea of his brother acting as a vessel for Castiel, and Sam can guess why, but it isn't until Castiel gets inside his head and they learn to share the vessel -- and their thoughts -- that Sam realises Cas is as in love with Dean as Dean is with him. It's unfortunate that there's nothing much to be done about it now, but Castiel will get another vessel soon. The Winchesters will make damn sure of that. In the meantime, it's up to the three of them to establish their own strange accord, and Dean realises more fully than ever that it's Castiel, and not his vessel, that he loves.

Warnings/Promises: This fic does contain character death (non-pairing). It does not contain Sam/Dean, Sam/Castiel, or Sam/Dean/Castiel. There is no oral-genital or genital-genital contact between Dean and Sam's body; there is no making out. However, please note that there is one scene depicting a mild sexual situation between Dean and Cas-in-Sam's body: [more explicit spoiler] there is cuddling and over-the-clothes, above-the-waist touching after a lot of UST. The result of this is dry humping at the climax of which Cas comes. There is a brief chaste kiss. Sam has consented to be Castiel's vessel and to kissing, as long as he doesn't have to hear about it, but not explicitly to anything further, which may trigger those with vessel consent issues. While my beta [livejournal.com profile] qthelights didn't find her incest squick to have been hit too badly by this fic, I know that others have been triggered and I'm sorry about that and for my failure to warn correctly in the first instance. In case the specifics of the NC-17 sex scene are a dealbreaker for anyone [spoiler]: it's Dean/Misha-shaped Castiel.
Acknowledgements: Thank you to my wonderful artist, [livejournal.com profile] smallworld_inc, for the huge amount of beautiful art she produced for this fic. ♥ Thank you also to my document-creepers, [livejournal.com profile] qthelights, [livejournal.com profile] cautionzombies, [livejournal.com profile] annundriel, [livejournal.com profile] hils and [livejournal.com profile] oddlyfamiliar for making me feel pressured enough to keep going (♥) and to [livejournal.com profile] oddlyfamiliar in particular for the beta.
Special Thanks: To [livejournal.com profile] cautionzombies. ♥ This fic is for you, babe. Without Jen's constant texts, emails, GDoc comments and gchat pingings of encouragement, abuse and squee, I would never have managed to finish this. I went into this knowing that I wanted to start at point a, convey theme b and arrive eventually at point d, but without Jen, there would have been no bridge c. Or porny outtakes. I ♥ you, babe. Thank you also to [livejournal.com profile] qthelights for making noises of horror when I said there wasn't going to be any sex in this at all. :P




. part one . part two . part three . part four.
. outtakes (read warnings!). PDF . AO3 . art post .

eta: I have altered my warnings above, but to reiterate here: I am truly sorry if my failure to warn correctly in the first instance led anyone to be triggered by this fic. It was not my intention to distress anyone, and I fully appreciate that I have done so.
ext_393041: perfect Spock (spn)

[identity profile] verizonhorizon.livejournal.com 2011-10-05 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
OMG OMG OMG THE ART! If it wasn't 1:36am, I'd dive in on the fic right now....Oh bloody hell, I'm starting it anyway! CAN'T. WAIT.

[identity profile] wolfrider89.livejournal.com 2011-10-05 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
This fic? This fic made my day. In SO many ways. You wrote the UST so painfully well I forgot to breathe in quite a few places. I was just so caught up in the moment, in the "will they, won't they?" of it. God.

I absolutelty loved Sam and Cas's interactions, how they bonded and became so close through sharing a body. The scene where Sam goes looking for Cas after the accidental kiss is just... *happy sigh* I also love how Dean can tell the difference so easily, how he just sees Cas when Cas is in charge.

I feel like my comment doesn't quite cover the level of happiness I felt over this fic, but hopefully you get the idea. :)

Oh, and I've been planning on friending you for a while now, so I hope you don't mind that I finally get to it. :P

[identity profile] mercury973.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
Downloading the PDF now. Thank you and I can't wait to read!
ext_8908: Flapping crane (Castiel)

[identity profile] bientot.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 08:52 am (UTC)(link)
In brief, I love this like Cas loves Dean.

The long story: so my Kindle died and the nice people at Amazon were sending me a new one and I was going nuts all weekend knowing this was there and not being good at reading online and climbing the walls waiting for the new Kindle, which arrived yesterday. Once again you are the first bookmark in my Kindle, and the first fic I read on it, and I love every bit of this amazing story! I could go through and pick out the bits that made me smile, or even laugh out loud - there's some funny stuff and happy stuff and then there's the incredible UST and of course (at last!) the great porny sex... I love the way you got their voices so perfectly, and that Dean wasn't the only one who could tell immediately who was in the driver's seat - you did a complicated and challenging thing here, and you did it really really well. So I had to come and explain why it took me so long to get back and comment here...and now I have to mention I'm still hoping for more Berlin....... :)

[identity profile] angeltrap.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh God, that was... fucking amazing, and definitely the best Supernatural fic I've ever read. Sorry, I'm still reeling from the sheer awesomeness of the whole story, and my brain isn't exactly functioning right now... Because seriously, wow.

My two favorite things about this fic are the way you've written it - beautiful and breathtaking but still so very supernatural, with the characters perfectly IC, and especially with the shifts in writing styles following shifts in POVs - and the way you've included all our boys. I love that it's exactly as much about Sam and his relationships to Dean and Cas as it's about Dean and Cas, even if it's a DxC story. I think it's perfect, and especially the ending, with the three of them becoming a happy little family, all best friends with each other, is just the way I'd love it to go in canon. *__* But oh well, that's what we have fanfiction and amazing fic-writers like you for...

[identity profile] serrico.livejournal.com 2011-10-07 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
A really intriguing premise, which you explored wonderfully. You're so good at sweeping the reader up in the characters' tension, building it and building it until the moment you break it is--not to be all cliche or anything, but--like a dam breaking. (Or, to put it another way, like a really freaking good sex scene at the end of a long, satisfyingly-told story. *g*)

Very well done! I enjoyed this a lot. :)

[identity profile] kel-reiley.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
I read this on recommendation from [livejournal.com profile] blue_fjords, and I'm SO GLAD I listened to her. As much as I love Dean/Cas, it was Sam here that I kinda fell in love with. I love good Sam POV stories, and you've written him just... amazingly perfect. Dean and Cas struck exactly the right chords, as well. Beautiful job with this!

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:02 am (UTC)(link)
♥ It looks awesome with the dividers in it, does it not? :DD

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:02 am (UTC)(link)
♥ The artwork blows me away; I got so lucky.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:03 am (UTC)(link)
I hope you've had a chance to look at the art, now. :D I am so in love with it!

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:03 am (UTC)(link)

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:03 am (UTC)(link)
♥ ♥ !

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:03 am (UTC)(link)
♥ :D

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:04 am (UTC)(link)
Is the artwork not the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? :d

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:04 am (UTC)(link)
I am in love with the art, I must confess. :)

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:04 am (UTC)(link)
:DDDDDD

YOU'RE SO CUTE!

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:04 am (UTC)(link)
♥ ♥ !

The gif is addictive, isn't it?

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:05 am (UTC)(link)
♥ ♥ !

Re: Just the art is... guh

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:05 am (UTC)(link)
♥ ♥

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:05 am (UTC)(link)
Hee :D

Re: �

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:06 am (UTC)(link)
♥ Thank you so much!

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:06 am (UTC)(link)
Your English is not sloppy; I understood you just fine! Thank you so much for commenting.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
I won't pretend it has an actual plot, but, y'know. :D

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much! :D

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much!

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