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obstinatrix ([personal profile] obstinatrix) wrote2011-02-21 12:56 am

Fic: the same big and little words (Jensen/Misha, NC-17)

...I'm really not sure where this came from. I've been working on my [livejournal.com profile] dc_everafter all day, and then suddenly there was Misha having ~feelings all over everything. IDEK.

Title: the same big and little words
Pairing: Jensen/Misha
Rating: R
Word Count: ~1000
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and consequently completely untrue.
Summary: He likes Jensen, though. He likes Jensen too much, such that everything seems to turn to gold in Jensen's fine-cut hands.



Jensen's mouth is a cavern of sweet smoke, the rich taste of loose tobacco meeting Misha's tongue when he pushes it inside. It turns him on, and it shouldn't, Christ, because a) Jensen quit smoking over a year ago, partly because b) it's Bad For His Health, like it says on all the posters, but also because c) Misha complained more than once about the nicotine scent on his clothes, the stale tar-taste on his tongue. Jensen used to smoke Marlboros, cheap and sour and soothing behind his trailer, and Misha used to hate it, so really he ought to be snatching the thing from Jensen's hand right now, crushing it out under the heel of his boot.

Facts in evidence:

#1: He isn't.
#2: He has absolutely no desire to.

Jensen curls his tongue, crooking at the roof of Misha's mouth, and Misha hums through his nose, thumbing the undeviating line of Jensen's jaw. He tastes earthy, like leaves after rain, the crushed-acorn flavour of roll-your-owns and old paper and sex. If he licks in deep, Misha can almost imagine he's tasting himself there, drawing an hours-old rush of want back out from under Jensen's tongue. Jensen's back is flat to the wall, cigarette smouldering between his fingers, and Misha feels anachronistic, a man from anywhere, unstuck in time.

Jensen pushes him back after a long moment; nips his mouth and murmurs, "Later," teeth flashing afterward, white and quick. He holds Misha's eyes as he raises his hand to his lips and hollows his mouth for a long last draw. Misha's legs go liquid at the sight, Pavlovian, and Jensen, because he is a bastard, notices and laughs, tipping his head back to show his long throat. Misha wants his tongue all over the hollows of it, wants to paint his claim on Jensen in spit and scratches, mark him up rough and dirty. The want rises up in his throat in a low, hot gasp.

"No," he says. "Now."

The flash in Jensen's eyes is, oh, predictable, but it's a prediction Misha likes that he sees there, as Jensen drops his cigarette in the dirt and reaches out, long-armed and unhesitating. They fall against each other in a blur of scrapes, teeth and stubble and fingernails, and Jensen grits out, "Misha, dammit," as his fingertips snake under Misha's waistband. The zipper buzzes open under the heel of his hand, and Misha lets his head tip forward, biting at Jensen's mouth as his own fingers work under layers of fabric to wrap around Jensen's cock.

"Holy - " Jensen rasps, voice Winchester-deep, and Misha doesn't know if it's the smoke or the sex that does it, but he likes it too much to give a fuck about the why. He rubs with his thumb; jacks his hand in rough up-and-down strokes, squeezing, and Jensen fucking keens in his throat; pushes off the wall to crush his mouth against Misha's. It's not a kiss, not quite, too slack and too brutal, but it shoots down hard to catch Misha between the legs where Jensen's hand's moving, working deep groans out of him. Misha clenches his thighs and shivers and rocks, little circles of his hips into Jensen's hand.

Jensen's voice stops before he comes, like a record cutting out, this break in the sound before the peak of a crescendo: oh oh oh and then nothing, just wetness pulsing out hot over Misha's hand. His fingernails clench, biting into Misha's arm through the shirt, and his other hand stills at its work for a moment, face going tight and then slackening after. Misha takes the opportunity to draw in a breath, and the air smells of Jensen, his smoke and sweat and sex.

"Christ," Jensen mutters, and starts up again.

It's only moments, then, before Misha feels his muscles seize up with it, white-hot rush banking up in his spine until it shoots out hard into Jensen's coaxing hand. He bites back his cry in his throat and Jensen hums approval; leans up and kisses him again, and fuck, Misha could kiss that mouth forever. He rubs off his hand against the bricks at Jensen's back; reaches up to grip Jensen's face, and kisses him, hard wet kisses that nuzzle and cling until their mouths tingle hard enough to break them apart.

Later, Jensen says, in wardrobe, almost like it's an afterthought: "I thought you said you didn't like it when I smoke?"

Misha shrugs his shoulders, glancing up and over at him sidelong. "I don't," he says. "You knew that already."

"And all that earlier," Jensen says, "that was you not liking smoking?"

"That earlier," Misha corrects, "was me liking you."

"Even with my filthy habits?" Jensen asks, grin beginning to birth itself at the corners of his mouth.

"That mouth," Misha mutters, "come on, Jensen, really," and Jensen only laughs, leaves it there and turns away.

He looked like a man in a black-and-white, there by the bricks, but Misha doesn't say what a picture he made; doesn't tell Jensen how much he likes the acorn-smell, or the look Jensen gets with his head tipped back like that, staring at nothing through a cloud of smoke. Jensen quit smoking months ago, and Misha doesn't like it.

He likes Jensen, though. He likes Jensen too much, such that everything seems to turn to gold in Jensen's fine-cut hands. He isn't going to say that. He isn't going to say anything, not even when the look in Jensen's eyes says he knows already; says he knows the way it feels.

Later, in the dark, Misha kisses Jensen's temple and says, "I don't want you to get cancer and die," completely apropos of nothing.

"Yeah," Jensen says, after a minute. "I know. I love you, too."

**

[identity profile] zempasuchil.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
He looked like a man in a black-and-white, there by the bricks, but Misha doesn't say what a picture he made; doesn't tell Jensen how much he likes the acorn-smell, or the look Jensen gets with his head tipped back like that, staring at nothing through a cloud of smoke.

ummmmmmm this makes me want an illustration in charcoal so bad! omg this. :] your writing, geez, it's delicious and beautiful.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
♥ Thank you so much, hon.

[identity profile] zempasuchil.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 01:01 am (UTC)(link)
Also I really like your Jensen, which is not something I feel much, because it's hard to ride that line between private and cool and kind that he exudes. but you dooo ittt :D

[identity profile] rowdy-missus.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
I second pretty much everything you just said.

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[identity profile] uwalumni2.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
Hotness here! Love the smexing between these two! Totally melts me! Their chemistry always makes me go all happy! :D

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] mulder200.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
Mm. For some reason, this fic is making me hungry.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
Hee! Well, that's a valid response, I'm sure! :D

[identity profile] writingpathways.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
I hate cigarette smoke, it's icky and it makes me sneeze. But this was really, really, really, HOT!

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:33 am (UTC)(link)
I hate cigarette smoke from packaged cigarettes, but for some reason I love the smell of loose tobacco in pipes or roll-ups. IDEK!

Anyway, I am glad you enjoyed this!
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[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much. :) ♥

[identity profile] bree-black.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 01:49 am (UTC)(link)
There are hearts in my eyes right now.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
:D Thank you!

[identity profile] lalazee.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Holy shit. My mind is completely blown. The imagery in this was so fucking sultry I felt like I was there. Your words always bring me to my knees, darling. Take that as you will. Thank you for sharing. <3

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
♥ Thank you for reading, and for such a lovely comment!

Happy Bouncing!

[identity profile] blu-3-haze.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
SHE'S BAAAAAAAAAACK!! Finally..I have been missing you and your writing.. *Sniffles* I was so happy I checked my tweets 2nite.

This was amazing. I remember what it's like to hate the cig's and the smoke but sometimes I miss it. This made me miss it and a happy stroll down memory lane was had by all of the people in my head! HA!

Thank you...Thank You... *Clapping*
I agree with zempasuchil...Anyone handy with charcoal???

Re: Happy Bouncing!

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:35 am (UTC)(link)
:D I've been writing longer fic, my [livejournal.com profile] dc_everafter and my [livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang, but the problem is that it makes me miss writing little PWPs! I'm so glad you liked, hon!

[identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/__oddly/ 2011-02-21 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
Excuse me while I squeal and hyperventilate in the corner. This was just wonderful, beautifully written and sexy as hell with just the perfect touch of sweetness. I'm a sucker for cigarettes/smoking in fics (idek) so this was just right on ♥

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:36 am (UTC)(link)
:D Thank you! I have a horrible smoking kink in fic, too, I can't help it. ;)

[identity profile] kriari.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
There is nothing about this that is not relevant to my interests. Rich and evocative. Their desire's palpable, as is Misha's care. Beautiful slice of life.

I also have a thing for Jensen smoking, so...

Anyway, this was a lovely read.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:36 am (UTC)(link)
A moment while I stare at your icon. Hnng.

Okay, done. Thank you! I have a thing for Jensen smoking, too. Guh.

[identity profile] chicklet25.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
Christ on a cross. I love you sfm right now. I have an absurd fixation on (with?) Jensen's mouth, and this fic just played right to it. And so damn beautifully. And your way with words leaves me breathless.

GAH! *flails*

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
:DDDDD

Thaaaaaaank you, bb.

[identity profile] dragonlit.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
Gorgeous writing. I read this before even looking at who the author was and loved. Then saw your name and nodded to myself. Beautiful picture of these men. Thank you!

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
Aw, bless you. :D Thank you!

[identity profile] aliassmith.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 08:29 am (UTC)(link)
"That mouth," Misha mutters, "come on, Jensen, really,"

I HAVE THIS THOUGHT ON A DAILY BASIS.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
IKR??

[identity profile] majestic-shriek.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 08:35 am (UTC)(link)
Hhhhnnng, I still don't know how you manage it, but I just love the way your writing flows and the way all the words kinda magically, lyrically link together to make something of hotness like this! Plus. Jensen's mouth. How can you go far wrong? This was lovely to wake up to - it's good to start a birthday with a smile, right? ;)

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! :D

[identity profile] skullage.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 08:59 am (UTC)(link)
Everything about this is lovely, from the smoking and the character bleed, to the palpable hawt tension between them. Thank you for letting me indulge in my RPF kink.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 10:38 am (UTC)(link)
You are very welcome; I'm delighted to have corrupted you. ;) ♥
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[identity profile] qthelights.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 11:13 am (UTC)(link)
N'awwww. This was all UNF and Fuck and then it blindsided with the sweet and gorgeous. *hugs it tight*
I know exactly that emotion and that situation.
Also, I love you for this :)

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 11:31 am (UTC)(link)
:DDDD

Thank you, bb; I'm so glad you liked it!
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[identity profile] stageira.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Jesus, woman. Just saying.... *flaps around the room*

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-21 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[identity profile] fleshflutter.livejournal.com 2011-02-22 08:03 am (UTC)(link)
Most awesome declaration of love ever! Love your characterisation of both of them, but you do Jensen's reserve particularly brilliantly. <3

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-22 08:55 am (UTC)(link)
Ha, thank you! I have a masochistic love of writing Jensen. ♥

[identity profile] timey-wimey-kid.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
Dear god in heaven smoking!Jensen is such a kink of mine you have no idea.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 10:13 am (UTC)(link)
Mine too, Jesus. Hnnng.

[identity profile] country_bee.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 07:25 am (UTC)(link)
Congrats! Our team has recced you here (http://community.livejournal.com/crack_impala/332677.html) at [livejournal.com profile] crack_impala

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 10:13 am (UTC)(link)
Oh! Thank you!

[identity profile] -mournthewicked.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Hnnngh. Even though rationally I know that smoking is bad, and I don't smoke, I have the biggest smoking!kink. A guy smoking a cigarette is so sexy to me and my stupid messed up brain. And JENSEN. SMOKING. I CAN'T.

My brain, she is broken.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
IKR? JENSEN SMOKING. IN LED ZEP T-SHIRTS. AJKSBLAKJSDBG MYBRAIN.

HI I AM DRUNK. IA M GLAD YOU LIKED THIS FFFFFF

[identity profile] remey.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
my god. not my usual cup of tea, but my god you painted such a lovely picture of taste.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 01:30 pm (UTC)(link)
:) Thank you!

[identity profile] nyoka.livejournal.com 2011-04-19 03:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Congrats! ☆ Your fic is recced here at [livejournal.com profile] sawedoff_recs.

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-04-19 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] lizzstomania.livejournal.com 2011-06-20 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
i hate smoking with an almighty passion, but i may have just a bit of an oral fixation where jensen is concerned
and you hit every damn one of my kinks with this
He holds Misha's eyes as he raises his hand to his lips and hollows his mouth for a long last draw.
yeah misha's not the only one with jelly legs

[identity profile] obstinatrix.livejournal.com 2011-06-20 08:04 am (UTC)(link)
♥ Thank you so much!

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