FANVID: in which obstinatrix branches out.

[obstinatrix]

I have been desperate for a Spock Prime fanvid to Johnny Cash's Hurt since the moment I heard it. I'm not really much of a vidder, but since nobody else seemed to be inclined to indulge me, I went ahead and made it myself. It was necessary. :)

Comments

[verselle.livejournal.com]

omg just make me cry why don't you ;____; I was just going to check my flist one last time before bed and of course I had to watch this and it was beautiful and so heartbreaking. ♥

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

♥ ♥

D'aww, thank you, bb. I didn't mean to make you cry!

[coeurdesoleil.livejournal.com]

I cannot listen to this song without tearing up, and then you added Kirk/Spock! Oh, the heartbreak! *sobs*

But yeah, I FRIGGIN LOVED THIS!!!

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

:D Thank you, bb!

The moment I heard it, I thought of K/S. :(

[mizubyte.livejournal.com]

I'm just leaving comments everywhere. It's amazing BB!!!

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

:D Thank you, sweetheart. Appropriate icon win!

[ariadnechan.livejournal.com]

but it is beautiful!!!! i think you are a fascinating vidder!!

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

:) Thank you, bb!

[illariy.livejournal.com]

Oh, very fitting! And for some reason, I am crazy in love with the opening chords and the shots of the Kelvin, and of course, the way you brought in Spock's memories. :D This really made me want to cuddle him. Cash's voice even sounds a leeeettle like LN's...

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

It does, a little, doesn't it? Possibly that contributed to my conviction that this video had to exist. :) Thank you!

[indiwise.livejournal.com]

This.

*all teary, now, too

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Nooooooo, no teariness! ♥

[greenteaduck.livejournal.com]

That was great ;u;
I love when TOS and Reboot get mish-mashed in a vid and Spock Prime's big sad eyes only made it more heart breaking~<3

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

I love the mish-mashes, too. :) Thank you, bb!

[carmencatalina.livejournal.com]

Oh, that was all kinds of lovely.

If I could start again . . .

So sad, because Spock Prime doesn't get to start again, does he? Everything starts again, except for him.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

I know. :(

Thank you, bb.

[my_daroga]

Oh my god.

I'm sobbing like a little baby. I don't have anything to say, but... Damn. It was necessary, and I am quite literally crying.

ILU SFM.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Nooooooo, no sobbing! God, the song is too perfect, though, isn't it? SPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOCK.

[seraphcelene]

Here via my_daroga's rec.

Very awesome vid. Perfectly cast against a pretty perfect song. Loved it. The opening was particularly phenomenal, and I loved the integration of all the TOS scenes. There's something nostalgic and poignant about including those incarnations of the characters with the newer ones.

Thanks for this.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you. :) I just feel like it's often forgotten that the older Spock in the reboot is that same Spock, with all that life already gone before him, and God, it saddens me so much trying to imagine what he must feel when he looks at himself-and-not-quite-himself in nu!Spock.

[barrowjane.livejournal.com]

This is brilliant, and sort of takes my heart and steps on it, in the best of ways. It's just - I get sad for Spock!Prime pretty easily, with him surrounded by people he knows who aren't the same and don't know him, and you took that and compressed it into three-and-a-half minutes. So - excellently done!

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[masakochan.livejournal.com]

Just watched it again, and I think I just felt my heart clench up at the part "If I could start again~" ;_;

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

:( Poor Spock!

[lielabell.livejournal.com]

This vid owns my heart and soul. Just fyi.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

*blush* Thank you!

[bloody-american.livejournal.com]

Oh dear baby jesus... that was... yeah. I adored it. I adore you! This vid completes me in some magical way that even I am still unaware of. It breaks my heart while at the same time makes me want to shout, 'fuck yeah!' <3333333

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

<3333333333333333333333 D'aww, thank you!

[lettered.livejournal.com]

I love this. It has . . . kind of owned my soul for the past couple days. I kept thinking about it at work and then I couldn't work because I was too sad. I'm serious here. K made fun of me.

I love this version of this song.
I've been wanting songs for a Spock mix for a long time.
I've thought before about how Spock Prime might view his beforeKirk!self as emotionally stunted. How he might even feel sorry for that self, for that person who has no peace, and no true friends. But in this there is such a true caring and love for that younger self--I mean, in the ways that Spock Prime is speaking to nuSpock, here.
This made me think new thoughts about Spock Prime, such as:
-I always *liked* to imagine he was at peace by the time Kirk died. That he would go on as Kirk would have wanted him to, and die feeling fulfilled. Not to say that he wouldn't be sad, or think the best part of his life is over. I think he'd feel both these things. But since he does come to a kind of peace by STVI I always hoped he'd be--okay, when Kirk died. But this kind of rips that comforting assumption away--it's not that he's going around wanting to kill himself from despair, every day. But I can see him not liking the person he is without Kirk there to be his other half, feeling that the work he would have done with Kirk, is now--doing it alone--futile and a failure.
-It never even occurred to me he'd blame himself for not saving Romulus, and thus blame himself also for the destruction of Vulcan. That would be so utterly illogical! But I could see it happening.
Last, him touching nuKirk's face on "old familiar sting" breaks me.
Also, "sweetest friend" is somehow so perfect. Sure I hope they had a lot of hot sweaty sex, more than brothers and more than lovers and what have you. But what they always were first and last was friends, and for Spock that was so life-affirming.

I'm really sad again so I'm going away. But I loved this and thank you for making it.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this comment. I haven't really vidded before, except for randomly stringing clips together, but I really needed to make this one. I wanted to show all the things you mention: the fact of Spock's continued existence the way it is shown in nuTrek really caught me. He is...alone. And that saddens me so much. And it just made me think about just how long he has been without all the people that he loved, who were all human, after all. And - yes. :(

<333

[veritty.livejournal.com]

Finally got around to watch it, FINALLY.

And it... it just tore me me apart. Oh, the song fits so well, and the moments you used... perfect. *sob* Amazing work. Thank you so much for this.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[sticktothestory.livejournal.com]

Aghk, the part with "You are someone else/I am still right there" totally did me in. >.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

That was pretty much the line that told me I had to make the vid!

[mahaliem.livejournal.com]

This is gorgeously done and so very heartbreaking.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[serenography.livejournal.com]

Here by rec. This was absolutely wonderful, and very moving. I also found myself on the brink of tears at the first shot of TOS Kirk. Congrats on an amazing job.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

here via mahaliem's rec. this is beautifully done and very moving. (i'm an old ST fan, and i respond strongly to the aging and the wish for a do-over.) very very nice.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :) ♥

[devin-chain.livejournal.com]

I love your fannish imagination. What a great choice of song!

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[gnine.livejournal.com]

Oh, that was beautiful! Perfect choice of song, fits Spock so well, and I loved the juxtaposition between the TOS clips and the reboot! Perfect blend, great job! ^__^

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[tintorera.livejournal.com]

I love this song, though it is sooooooo sad
*snivels*

This vid is great, but it makes me melancholy
*sighs*

[fadsforwhatever.livejournal.com]

Don't mind me, just making an incredibly late comment on this! I found it on youtube a few weeks ago and it's one of the best fanvids I've ever seen. Johnny Cash's cover of Hurt is beautiful and it fits the scenes you picked...flawlessly. My heart wrenches whenever I see the destruction of Vulcan. I may have teared up a little
/incoherent babbling
This is beautiful. Thank you.

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :) I'm really pleased that you liked this.

[ceares.livejournal.com]

lovely!